There are types of people who only hate.then there are people who hate certain people and then there are people who only love and then there is who only say they love .The word love is so messed up that I think everybody is confused that what exactly love is.Last time when I started writing about what love is I couldn't write because I am also confused that what this word means Affection? Trust? Occupied with their thoughts really if its that then aliens are always on my mind.Really it's confusing but I know it is opposite of hate,jealousy,grudge and other stuff.To me, I feel love is something where negativity doesn't exist.And I wanna live like that and If someone says what love is I am gonna say it is something free from every impure or negative stuff.
Philosophers say that love is powerful than anything in this world and I really agree with that because powerful things are hard to achieve And love is really hard and hating is really easy.When love and hate come face to face who is gonna win do you know that ?.In this world in which we live right now,in my point of view love is so rare that it exist like it doesn't exist.everything and every feeling has become so impure and it has become a word so easy to say.We hear it so much that now we don't even feel it.It is just Like other those word that just automatically comes out of our mouths. We are human beings and we expect so much only from others not knowing how much we are giving and if we are the one giving we expect something much more or something little bit more valuable than what we give which only leaves us to be disappointed or broken.
You know there is only one thing in this world which scares me the most which are hatred.I am not even scared of death but hatred is something else.It is so easy to hate that it can change and destroy so much.It can even alter the loving heart.I Am the person who doesn't even wanna go towards the negativity.I don't wanna have a glimpse of it,I believe in giving my love (which opposite of hatred and negativity) and I am a human being and I expect bigger love in return Its not necessary that I always will.Now, people talk about love and giving awareness about love but there are types of people who are spreading the love with such a harsh and rude words and I encounter somebody like that yesterday.
it made me so sad and for a while so angry because I felt that it was not the right way to remove hatred but it is only gonna cause more hatred and anger but what really broke me was when my dearest Friend whom I cherish a lot was with her and back fired at me and she did not even felt that how these words could hurt somebody.Everybody have self-respect and I have too so I could say some harsh words too but it would make me no different from others so escaped that place but what were the after effects?I cried so much just because I got so angry,I felt so ditched and I am crying now that I don't want these feelings.
I read somewhere that our heart is like a bag of tomatoes if you leave hatred inside of it,it will spoil and if you will leave it for a lot of time it will start giving smell so to keep your heart fresh you gotta take care of it,pluck all the hatred so it will be fresh and filled with the best aroma.After that situation ,My heart was filling with hatred and anger and when I realized it I was crying that how can I overcome this hatred I prayed to Allah that I don't wanna be the person who have the slightest anger towards someone I love and after the moment I was relaxed but All the moments we spent felt like it was merely a dream like nothing was true .I Know maybe I am being little too much sarcastic but It feel like a can crushed down by a car.She doesn't have the slightest clue what I am going through and I don't even know she is reading this but I know I am still gonna love her because its me I will fight this hatred But I did realized that hatred is something so easy that it can melt the strongest bonds and that is why it is weakest And Love Is powerful that is hard to fill your heart with it and only the strongest person can handle it.I can hate thousand people but it will make me coward and it is coward thing to me! but love is powerful and It makes a person strong So I will pray to Allah that I become strong so that I won't let hatred come close to me ever again.
I do wanna say, guys, that every individual can do much better.Saying harsh word is so easy But it can destroy so much,never in your life say any harsh word to anyone even if it's your Friend .Rude words have become a trend now but Why can't we make loving words trendy.If each of us tries to remove hatred from our heart won't it make the world less miserable?When a baby is born he only knows how to love but as he grows he learns how to hate why?because we don't teach him to love or the side effects of hate.and especially never ever promote love with harsh and hatred comments it doesn't make a person less hypocrite .I don't want to be someone who has even 1% of hatred and I chose it to be and you can too.
I really don't know how to end this blog but guys If I say I love you I mean it so lets try to love and fill our heart with it and never expect and never hate because this world is already full of hatred now it needs a bit of love .. and each person can make a difference you can make a difference.... so will You?
"Love can win hatred but hatred can never win love"
Love You Guys.Be safe.
***bubyee***
Monday, November 7, 2016
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
_____ Life And Its Limits _____
There are many pieces that make up our lives: Moments that break us. Moments that raise and shape us. Decisions we make to hold on, or let go. People who enter our lives and leave us changed forever. The ones we love, the ones that hurt us, or heal us, or leave us. Sometimes we don't understand these pieces, or even despair over them. It's only when time goes by and we look back, that we suddenly can see our
whole life like a perfectly designed puzzle. Don't be afraid of the puzzle piece you're in now. It will fit perfectly…just like the rest. How could it not? Well…
The Designer is perfect.
No matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces and they won't even watch where those pieces land. But through the breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn that you're strong. And no matter how hard they destroy you, that you can conquer anyone and anything. The thought of being strong will surely make you happy and being happy when you're in pain is just an example of how strong you're as a person...
In life there is no such thing about fate that you cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. You can decide how you can spend your time, whom you interact with, whom you should share your life, money, and energy with. You can select what you can read, eat, and study. You can choose how you're going to regard unfortunate circumstances in your life whether you'll see them as curses or opportunities. You can choose your words and the tone of your voice in which you speak to others. And most of all you can choose your thoughts. Rather thoughts and feelings and our reaction to them, are not a solid or fixed part of who we are. Positive thoughts generate positive feelings and
attract positive life experiences.
You're in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life. You can either give negativity
power over your life or you can choose happiness instead.
The pain you endure in your life is not permanent. You came to this world to grow and to explore and to touch the miracles and marvels of life. Your suffering needs to be respected. Don't try to ignore the hurt, because the hurt is real. Instead, let the hurt prove there is hope through your healing. Let the hurt soften you instead of hardening you. Let the hurt open you instead of closing you. Let the hurt deliver you to Love, and not to hate as you can't do anything about the Length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth. The psychic depths are nature, and nature is creative life. The length of your life is less important than its depth. As Leni Riefenstahl said: "I feel as though I've lived many lives, experienced the heights and depths of each and like the waves of the ocean, never known rest. Throughout the years I've always looked for the unusual, for the wonderful, for the mysteries at the heart of Life."
So, basically, "Only he understands Life who enters into its depths."
First we may try to know ourselves, and then we'll begin to understand why things are as they are, and why life is as it is…
Written by guest Writter
Sadia
Love you guys.Be Safe.
Bubyee
Friday, October 7, 2016
___ The Psychopath ____
You know I say that the strongest only reaches the point where he can live and make the difference but there are some people who are not strongest but somehow they live but don't make a difference if something they do is making other people suffer and everybody knows them as the psychopath.There is a big difference in a mental person and a psychopath in my eyes.You see! the mental have has some problem with his brain it is diseased or they are born with it but the psychopath ruins his own brain.I have seen so many psychopaths in my life and I always observe them that why they are like this.They are born healthy like us,they have same body and brains like us but what happen and why they become weak and then I got is that it's not their fault not even a 1%.
They are the side effect of a society,of their surroundings.You see not every person is born with a gold spoon in their mouth,or with love and affection and some are not even lucky to live in a peaceful way.Babies are born and then they become an experiment for so many people,they use them as their stress relief toy and some will give birth to their baby but will forget that they ever did and that child is lost in the thoughts that why my parents are not with me or what is the meaning of my life or why even I am here.Living alone and making your own thoughts and wiping your own tears led you to live in a darkness.your mind becomes weak and then you hate your surrounding because there is just no one to save you or to understand you.Now these people will become the most insecurities and the most pain.Now what they do?
Every psychopath has a different way to relieve them or make them shine.Either they will hurt somebody or they will hurt themselves.I know crazy right but it is true.They are the side effect and now they will affect others life.There is another psychopath how is worse he not only a psychopath but he turns everybody in a psychopath.A part of they live quietly and endure everything but as soon they get the freedom they turn everybody's life into hell.like if he has kids he will affect them in every way he will break them and then rip them in every way and later those kids become one of a psychopath and then the cycle goes on.
It makes me so angry that it is us.How? In so many ways it could be us,we are a human being and we do so many wrong stuff and in our life maybe some of our act make a difference in somebody else life.And I say all the time love everybody who is near you even you know them or not be their light you don't even that whom you will bring into the light.Talk to the people around you.Give good vibes.Be polite and loving.And you are one who is suffering DEAR! everybody goes through tough life,it is just that maybe their hardship is not like yours.This life is temporary so we have to make the best out of it.I know this is so tough because you are fighting with yourself 24 hours but trust me, in the end, you will be really proud of yourself and ask for help.From the people who you think give the good vibes.It could be anyone a person in the barber shop or a person next door or a person in your class or a job.In the end, it is your life and you will decide that are you the strongest or the bad situation around you.And best of all ask Allah for help,He never leaves a person in more burden than he can hold.
Be nice to each other and always be positive.
Love you guys.Be Safe.
****bubyee****
They are the side effect of a society,of their surroundings.You see not every person is born with a gold spoon in their mouth,or with love and affection and some are not even lucky to live in a peaceful way.Babies are born and then they become an experiment for so many people,they use them as their stress relief toy and some will give birth to their baby but will forget that they ever did and that child is lost in the thoughts that why my parents are not with me or what is the meaning of my life or why even I am here.Living alone and making your own thoughts and wiping your own tears led you to live in a darkness.your mind becomes weak and then you hate your surrounding because there is just no one to save you or to understand you.Now these people will become the most insecurities and the most pain.Now what they do?
Every psychopath has a different way to relieve them or make them shine.Either they will hurt somebody or they will hurt themselves.I know crazy right but it is true.They are the side effect and now they will affect others life.There is another psychopath how is worse he not only a psychopath but he turns everybody in a psychopath.A part of they live quietly and endure everything but as soon they get the freedom they turn everybody's life into hell.like if he has kids he will affect them in every way he will break them and then rip them in every way and later those kids become one of a psychopath and then the cycle goes on.
It makes me so angry that it is us.How? In so many ways it could be us,we are a human being and we do so many wrong stuff and in our life maybe some of our act make a difference in somebody else life.And I say all the time love everybody who is near you even you know them or not be their light you don't even that whom you will bring into the light.Talk to the people around you.Give good vibes.Be polite and loving.And you are one who is suffering DEAR! everybody goes through tough life,it is just that maybe their hardship is not like yours.This life is temporary so we have to make the best out of it.I know this is so tough because you are fighting with yourself 24 hours but trust me, in the end, you will be really proud of yourself and ask for help.From the people who you think give the good vibes.It could be anyone a person in the barber shop or a person next door or a person in your class or a job.In the end, it is your life and you will decide that are you the strongest or the bad situation around you.And best of all ask Allah for help,He never leaves a person in more burden than he can hold.
Be nice to each other and always be positive.
Love you guys.Be Safe.
****bubyee****
Saturday, September 10, 2016
______ The silent life _______
Deep in my mind,there is a story to be emancipated,the girl who just wants to scream.What happened to her.I'll let you hear,just listen carefully because it might disappear.
Deep in a desert.there is a small village with a few souls.A fascinating village with really hot weather.If you wanna see there is sizzling sky like maybe you woke up in a middle of your deepest dreams.Air is filled with nothing but a dust but I think everyone here is used to it.In those people there lives a girl with the darkest fate.But what will come to her she doesn't know yet it is very close to her.A girl with a beautiful face has darkest yet shiny eyes,black shiny hair that if you run your fingers through it just feels like a silk.In a long Resham gown and jewelry in her hair.Everyone has their eye on her but she does not care.Standing behind the stall with a clothed roof trying to her handmade pots.A woman reached her holding shiny jewels and asked her:
"Indeed you are beautiful.as the people say but will come with me I will give you all this".
The girl with innocent face:
"I am sorry I don not have wished for these.you can return if you do not have anything else to take"
The women with smiley face:
"Don't you remember me from the past you had.You wouldn't be alive if I was not there"
The girl turned pale and remembered it was a woman who took care of her when she was really young.The memory was nothing but all red.All the brutality and the misery of her past.This woman gave nothing but scars.Her face was numb,her voice was stuck in the middle of her throat.there nothing which she could utter at all.All she could think that why she is here now?.The girl tried to run but she grabbed her before she could disappear. the girl crying and yelling asking"why you came.I ran away long ago so I'll not see your face again .The woman replied, its"I got old now it's your time to take care of me". she grabbed her hand and started to walk.The girl with wet eyes cried for help.There was a boy who loved her so much.Always watched her behind the curtains.As he saw her.he had to jump to save the one and only he loved.He reached her and grabbed her arm and pulled her closer to him.Electricity ran through all his body and he knew now was the time and all he could he say to her was "I lOVE YOU",She looked above saw a handsome boy with beautiful skin,perfect body with a muscular jawline.So handsome that every girl can die for him.As her tired eye met his eye full of hopes.She read all his feeling and knew that now she was safe.
But the woman pulled out her knife and tried to kill the girl but instead she got stabbed by the only girl.The girl screaming with a broken voice"I will not live in those dungeon cells.I will never become the lusted gift to all the men you bring,the blood splashed like if it drp on white rose,it wouldve given sight of a blooming red rose.it could be a sight beautiful to think but now it was nothing but a nightmare.But now everything was gone,the scary past and a haunting witch.And now got the boy to fill her hollow heart with a necter of his love which will her heart into a blooming rose.
I hope you guys will like this small story I wrote.It has a really different writing style,personallyI don't know if this writing style exists.It could be an original haha but I really enjoyed writing I hope you enjoyed reading it.have a great day
Love you guys.Be safe.
**** bubye ****
Friday, September 2, 2016
____ A Funtastic Day____
Yesterday was the most energetic day of my life.It sure is amazing when you have a productive day.So,I started learning to stitch last week and yesterday I completed my own dress which is so cute.Everyone was so impressed and later we went for swimming but unfortunately we couldn't get the keys so I went to the gym.It was not my first time in the gym but I never work out because I never needed to work out but I love to exercise and then I tried everything.It was just so amazing.I only stayed there for 15 minuted or so after that I was just dying :D.I really felt even though I can't work out ,a little bit exercise is necessary because it will improve my body function .. later We went to an amusement park and all I did was playing those token games.I was just so lost in them and I didn't even realize that who is around me.I was screaming shouting haha .I am not even the best gamer but I don't know I don't think so it is only me that whenever you get a chance to play no matter how bad you are you get lost into it and then your whole body moves along you like every individual part of your body is just competing itself to secure best.
like if you I am playing a racing game and know I have to move my car and every car is so fast don't have any idea what is going on and the pressure is on,I have to move my car left with the steering wheel my shoulder my head every part fall towards left like if my whole body will not move left my car will definitely won't go left .And if my car gets hit all cursing words come out .but my favourite games are shooting games.having gun in my hand and aiming at a zombie or an alien feels like I am really on a battlefield.When I started a chapter one everything was quite but as soon it started I don't even remember what happened next ... I was screaming shouting and jumping ..oh man it was so crazy but as soon I lost and turned back everybody was staring at me it was just so embarrassing .everyone with there family and all the women and girls with their husbands or brother and I am 19-year-old girl screaming crazily like there is no tomorrow.It could be true though who know there is tomorrow so I again started playing that same game over and over again.Did I protect myself getting embarrassed this time? well no ,how could I .I was on a battlefield fighting aliens,the is no way I would not scream :D. I didn't want it to end but it was time and they started turning off the lights and everyone was dragging me to stop and to move .. hahaha I don't think so I got that crazier in my whole life :D.But it was so fun and I just can't wait to go back there again. but I don't know if I will be able to control myself this time.
Have ever got this crazier?if you have I would be that it's not only me haha.How was your day though?And what is the best memory of an amusement park?
Love you guys.Be safe.
***bubyee***
like if you I am playing a racing game and know I have to move my car and every car is so fast don't have any idea what is going on and the pressure is on,I have to move my car left with the steering wheel my shoulder my head every part fall towards left like if my whole body will not move left my car will definitely won't go left .And if my car gets hit all cursing words come out .but my favourite games are shooting games.having gun in my hand and aiming at a zombie or an alien feels like I am really on a battlefield.When I started a chapter one everything was quite but as soon it started I don't even remember what happened next ... I was screaming shouting and jumping ..oh man it was so crazy but as soon I lost and turned back everybody was staring at me it was just so embarrassing .everyone with there family and all the women and girls with their husbands or brother and I am 19-year-old girl screaming crazily like there is no tomorrow.It could be true though who know there is tomorrow so I again started playing that same game over and over again.Did I protect myself getting embarrassed this time? well no ,how could I .I was on a battlefield fighting aliens,the is no way I would not scream :D. I didn't want it to end but it was time and they started turning off the lights and everyone was dragging me to stop and to move .. hahaha I don't think so I got that crazier in my whole life :D.But it was so fun and I just can't wait to go back there again. but I don't know if I will be able to control myself this time.
Have ever got this crazier?if you have I would be that it's not only me haha.How was your day though?And what is the best memory of an amusement park?
Love you guys.Be safe.
***bubyee***
Sunday, August 28, 2016
____ That One Minute Attack _____
August 24, the day when I experienced something really scary, I am sure it was 10 pm when I had an anxiety attack. It was not the first time that I had an anxiety attack but this was the first time that I couldn't control it myself. Anxiety attacks and OCD together are worse. It is like you don"t have control in your own self and you often react and do stuff you don't want to do. and sometimes you want to do something but you can't make yourself do it. It is a fight within yourself and with yourself. and it is scary because you can't even figure out yourself.
I always have these attacks usually when I have thoughts of being alone or when I get hyper or see a fight and it was that day, I got hyper but the difference was that it was my dad whom I yelled at that day. I hate those arguments when I know the person in front of me is 100% wrong and that day my dad was wrong, he was talking about stuff which I knew was completely false and it was turning into an argument. For a long time I tried just listening and not saying anything but as that argument was getting bigger I got more anxious almost hyper and when I knew it was all wrong. I tried keeping quiet but I couldn't, I couldn't stop myself and burst out. I tried talking in the best manner I could but next thing I know I yelled at him, my heartbeat was super fast and my mind went all blurry. I knew I did something nuisance. I knew I did something crazy but I couldn't face him and I turned my back and went out of the room. It only took seconds for me to leave room after yelling at him.but in those seconds I was lost inside me,everything was blurry,my heartbeat, it was so fast that I could not feel it and my breath was like I am in a deep sea where everything is dark and I cannot breathe even if want to.I tried inhaling air from my nose but I couldn't and my mouth was wide open trying to inhale the air as much as I can,it was like I am gonna die, In those milliseconds my brain was shut I was unable to notice where I am or what things are around me or who is around me all I could remember the thoughts.
the thought which was the only thing revolving around my head. It was the only thing which was getting to me without a hindrance.I m a bad girl. I am a bad daughter. I am a bad luck to them.I am nobody . I am such a fool . I am dying.it is better if I die.their life would be easier without me.I am no good.I m no good to anybody.die.die,I am alone.n obody is there for me.I am not important.they are angry.they do n't Ike me.I did something good but I did something bad.These all thoughts just caught me and I couldn't do anything. I tried yelling, calling my mom but I couldn't. It was like somebody caught my tongue. Everything was black in front of me and my hands were shaking .they were shaking so hard that I was terrified of myself and the thought I could only hear. The only thing which I could utter was "mom.water.mom.water".there was nothing else I could say and the only thing I could feel was my mom holding my hand tightly and telling me to breathe. Of course, it was really hard for me to focus on what she was saying and then breathing with occupied my brain. I was terrified of myself and shocked that what is happening to me I could feel the tears falling but I couldn't wipe them off. I could feel the glass of water which was shaking so bad that water could splash all over the place. I tried taking a sip but it was like that it is impossible.
I was scared, I was actually terrified more than scared because I do get attacks when I experience a fight or when I feel alone but I was always able to calm myself.I would lock myself and comfort my own self and try to think more positively.it usually takes 2 to 3 hours to calm down completely but this time I was unable to control or even figure out myself but this time I was normal in 10 minutes because when my mom hugged me I could feel her holding my hand and comforting me. I was terrified but I was so happy that this time, I had my mom beside me to comfort me. and it took 10 minutes to come back to normal. when I came back to senses I knew that I did wrong but I was terrified that why I wasn't able to control myself this time but I was also kinda happy that my mom was there, she was there.this how my scariest moment became a bit happy moment too. it's not like that I did not have attacks again.I did but they were minor attacks and I was able to control myself so I am kinda proud that I m being strong and helping myself but I did realize what its like to have no control over yourself.I did not need anything but that one hug made my hours a minute.
I shared my experience because I want you to help other when they need you,take care of them and if you went through this I just want you to know that you will be alright.You are a fighter in your own battle and you will only feel better when you'll conqure yourself,and it is better to ask help.I know it is so annoying when you are trying to tell what it is or what it is like but they don't understand and say yeah it is just ur mind shake it.But you know yourself so try comforting and motivating yourself, it will work.I love you and I respect you so much just remember that.Just accept it because it will teach so much :). love you millions :).
Help others and be kind to others .
Love you guys,Be safe.
****bubyee****
I always have these attacks usually when I have thoughts of being alone or when I get hyper or see a fight and it was that day, I got hyper but the difference was that it was my dad whom I yelled at that day. I hate those arguments when I know the person in front of me is 100% wrong and that day my dad was wrong, he was talking about stuff which I knew was completely false and it was turning into an argument. For a long time I tried just listening and not saying anything but as that argument was getting bigger I got more anxious almost hyper and when I knew it was all wrong. I tried keeping quiet but I couldn't, I couldn't stop myself and burst out. I tried talking in the best manner I could but next thing I know I yelled at him, my heartbeat was super fast and my mind went all blurry. I knew I did something nuisance. I knew I did something crazy but I couldn't face him and I turned my back and went out of the room. It only took seconds for me to leave room after yelling at him.but in those seconds I was lost inside me,everything was blurry,my heartbeat, it was so fast that I could not feel it and my breath was like I am in a deep sea where everything is dark and I cannot breathe even if want to.I tried inhaling air from my nose but I couldn't and my mouth was wide open trying to inhale the air as much as I can,it was like I am gonna die, In those milliseconds my brain was shut I was unable to notice where I am or what things are around me or who is around me all I could remember the thoughts.
the thought which was the only thing revolving around my head. It was the only thing which was getting to me without a hindrance.I m a bad girl. I am a bad daughter. I am a bad luck to them.I am nobody . I am such a fool . I am dying.it is better if I die.their life would be easier without me.I am no good.I m no good to anybody.die.die,I am alone.n obody is there for me.I am not important.they are angry.they do n't Ike me.I did something good but I did something bad.These all thoughts just caught me and I couldn't do anything. I tried yelling, calling my mom but I couldn't. It was like somebody caught my tongue. Everything was black in front of me and my hands were shaking .they were shaking so hard that I was terrified of myself and the thought I could only hear. The only thing which I could utter was "mom.water.mom.water".there was nothing else I could say and the only thing I could feel was my mom holding my hand tightly and telling me to breathe. Of course, it was really hard for me to focus on what she was saying and then breathing with occupied my brain. I was terrified of myself and shocked that what is happening to me I could feel the tears falling but I couldn't wipe them off. I could feel the glass of water which was shaking so bad that water could splash all over the place. I tried taking a sip but it was like that it is impossible.
I was scared, I was actually terrified more than scared because I do get attacks when I experience a fight or when I feel alone but I was always able to calm myself.I would lock myself and comfort my own self and try to think more positively.it usually takes 2 to 3 hours to calm down completely but this time I was unable to control or even figure out myself but this time I was normal in 10 minutes because when my mom hugged me I could feel her holding my hand and comforting me. I was terrified but I was so happy that this time, I had my mom beside me to comfort me. and it took 10 minutes to come back to normal. when I came back to senses I knew that I did wrong but I was terrified that why I wasn't able to control myself this time but I was also kinda happy that my mom was there, she was there.this how my scariest moment became a bit happy moment too. it's not like that I did not have attacks again.I did but they were minor attacks and I was able to control myself so I am kinda proud that I m being strong and helping myself but I did realize what its like to have no control over yourself.I did not need anything but that one hug made my hours a minute.
I shared my experience because I want you to help other when they need you,take care of them and if you went through this I just want you to know that you will be alright.You are a fighter in your own battle and you will only feel better when you'll conqure yourself,and it is better to ask help.I know it is so annoying when you are trying to tell what it is or what it is like but they don't understand and say yeah it is just ur mind shake it.But you know yourself so try comforting and motivating yourself, it will work.I love you and I respect you so much just remember that.Just accept it because it will teach so much :). love you millions :).
Help others and be kind to others .
Love you guys,Be safe.
****bubyee****
Friday, August 12, 2016
____ Imaginary world _____
Everyone has their own imaginary world. I know everyone does. If you don't have it,it means that you have a virtual world where you live in all the time :D.I have an imaginary world too actually it is more like a virtual world because whenever I think of something crazy or any moment I can actually see it and feel it (is it only me or you also feel like it).I guess I have rea ally strong imagination and I can't help it.I just love living in the world with everything around me is so crazy. and today is one of those days when I just can't get out of this world so I thought maybe I should share my imaginary world with you.My imaginary world does not consist of dragons or prince or any castle,it i s very realistic actually,(that's why maybe sometimes I feel that it is completely true).
Well let's start from beginning,in my world, I have a house not too big but it does have a pool in it and I actually am a great swimmer (Oh man!I can feel the water)In real life I really don't know how to swim and that I would love to learn in the future.I have a really close friend which is me myself.I couldn't see any person in this world who can know and comfort me much better than I can myself .So yeah I share stuff with myself and also give crazy idea and tips to myself(I know I went kuku there )but this is true who know you better than you do yourself. and I am really talkative so yeah I do talk to myself all the time. In my world, there is everyone whomever I met in my entire life and also those who I have never met like will smith, Chris Brown, joey and yeah they are really close to me. I can't see them close to me in real life coz I don't know how it would turn out :D.
I love pets but I never had one but If I ever do I will definitely have a bird a parrot maybe. A cuddling parrot that would be lovely. and I do have a small forest of my own where there are lots of cherry blossoms (I love cherry blossoms but I have never seen one). and yeah Do I have a boy in my world? yes, I do. He is not too cute but cute because He did win my heart .haha. He is not too perfect but he understands me and he listens to me and whenever I am sad he knows it. It's like he knows me much better I know myself. He is understanding and loves traveling just like I do And we have been to many adventures and every corner of the world. Well, I am not gonna give a lot about him because he is still an imagination lol.
In my world, Every person I love is around me and I am not afraid of losing them because gonna stay there forever. And, I am someone important to everyone. I am a center of attention which I love.I love it so much that it gives me a warm feeling even in a real life. I guess that's why we have our own imaginary worlds which make us feel better even when we are feeling dull in this real life. But I believe if you don't really have unrealistic things in your world it might be your future. My imaginary world I believe is my future because it is more than an imaginary world, "It is a dream " and Insha Allah I will make it happen .. but until then I can make my Imaginary world even more beautiful and bigger. you know you are never too old to dream.
Love you guys. Be safe.
***bubyee***
Well let's start from beginning,in my world, I have a house not too big but it does have a pool in it and I actually am a great swimmer (Oh man!I can feel the water)In real life I really don't know how to swim and that I would love to learn in the future.I have a really close friend which is me myself.I couldn't see any person in this world who can know and comfort me much better than I can myself .So yeah I share stuff with myself and also give crazy idea and tips to myself(I know I went kuku there )but this is true who know you better than you do yourself. and I am really talkative so yeah I do talk to myself all the time. In my world, there is everyone whomever I met in my entire life and also those who I have never met like will smith, Chris Brown, joey and yeah they are really close to me. I can't see them close to me in real life coz I don't know how it would turn out :D.
I love pets but I never had one but If I ever do I will definitely have a bird a parrot maybe. A cuddling parrot that would be lovely. and I do have a small forest of my own where there are lots of cherry blossoms (I love cherry blossoms but I have never seen one). and yeah Do I have a boy in my world? yes, I do. He is not too cute but cute because He did win my heart .haha. He is not too perfect but he understands me and he listens to me and whenever I am sad he knows it. It's like he knows me much better I know myself. He is understanding and loves traveling just like I do And we have been to many adventures and every corner of the world. Well, I am not gonna give a lot about him because he is still an imagination lol.
In my world, Every person I love is around me and I am not afraid of losing them because gonna stay there forever. And, I am someone important to everyone. I am a center of attention which I love.I love it so much that it gives me a warm feeling even in a real life. I guess that's why we have our own imaginary worlds which make us feel better even when we are feeling dull in this real life. But I believe if you don't really have unrealistic things in your world it might be your future. My imaginary world I believe is my future because it is more than an imaginary world, "It is a dream " and Insha Allah I will make it happen .. but until then I can make my Imaginary world even more beautiful and bigger. you know you are never too old to dream.
Love you guys. Be safe.
***bubyee***
Friday, July 22, 2016
_____ Rely On ____
In this world,we get entangled with so many things that we forget about so many important stuff.We make other things our life and then our life revolve around it.We see dreams and then we try to reach them,but everyone,even the strongest person rely on somebody or someone.Every creature on this Earth rely on someone and as we grow up we get stronger and we deny all these things and somewhere we think and believe that we were the one who worked hard and reached where we are today(not everyone but mostly does).
When we are born our life of relying on others start.First,we rely on our parents for our education.food,shelter,for making us a good human being but then that stage is finished and we rely on our teachers for our future and as we finish study we rely on somebody who could give us jobs.Then we rely on people who could notice us buy our products or only just someone who could praise us but as soon we get recognised we start living in our ego and forget that we are still relying on someone.We rely on somebody for their love.for their time and their care.And then we get old and rely on doctors for our health and this how our life ends.What is important that we don't see those important people who helped us in the journey of our life but most importantly.....
We get entangled in this world and forget him who shouldn't be forgotten."Our creator". Allah Who created us. Yeah, we do remember that He is the one who created us but we don't thank him enough like how He should be thanked. We know that He is the one who is controlling everything but we don't ask him directly for anything and we rely on people, If we want something fro whom we expect, If we want good grades from whom we expect and If we want success from whom we expect even If we want life whom we seek? doctors,teachers,parents.See we don't ask Allah for Anything directly. We ask something when nobody can give but that's wrong. Expect from Allah, Rely on Allah alone, Ask for his help. He does listen.
When we expect from people we start believing in them and then put our faith into them but when we don't get the result we get upset, sad. And mostly disappointed. And when we rely on somebody for love or their trust and they don't respond , What happens? we get caught by depression and anxiety chases us. But I have seen people saying that we ask Allah for help, we make dua but he doesn't listen. How you can say that he doesn't listen. The One who created us doesn't,t listen to us?The one who created not just us but the whole world and everything inside it just for us, doesn't listen to us?
He listens and knows what is in our heart but wants to see how much we have faith in Him. He doesn't want us to shout, nor cry out loud because He listens to even the silent prayers of a sincere heart and no doubt He is the best Listener.
Sometimes things don't go as we plan and then we get frustrated and question Him for His judgment and this is an example of a broken faith. Why we question Him.Why we don't trust him with His judgment, His wisdom. Can anyone do better than in what He does?. Can anybody make better decisions than He makes? but we ignore this fact and look help around us. Its a fact that people believe and trust what they can see that's why people forget that who has the power. but we are human and we diverge from our path but Allah is always there to listen.No matter how many times we diverge from his path He will forgive us and He will listen because He loves His man. He just says "Remember me and I will remember you". And nothing in this world belongs to us even our body He is the one Who has given us this body and He will be one who takes it .then why we are so entangled in this world and why we rely on others for everything when He is the only controller.
Trust Him with whole your heart and whatever happens in your life have full faith that it was for the best because nothing happens without any reason.Sometimes to teach us something or sometimes it was not better for us. And when we will put our whole faith in Him we will see His signs in everything. We will know how amazing His decision was for us.He will always do better for us because He loves His man. This world is nothing than an examination hall where we are tested that Who will we rely on, from whom will we ask for help. We do fail sometimes but Allah reminds us again and again "Call me and I will reply". And Allah SWT never put a burden on a soul beyond that he can bear. Remember him and rely on him And pray only to him because He is the only one who has the power to change and make you stronger. Allah SWT says,
"Take one step towards me,
I will take ten steps towards you,
Walk towards me,
I will run towards you."
Love you guys. Be safe.
****bubyee***
When we are born our life of relying on others start.First,we rely on our parents for our education.food,shelter,for making us a good human being but then that stage is finished and we rely on our teachers for our future and as we finish study we rely on somebody who could give us jobs.Then we rely on people who could notice us buy our products or only just someone who could praise us but as soon we get recognised we start living in our ego and forget that we are still relying on someone.We rely on somebody for their love.for their time and their care.And then we get old and rely on doctors for our health and this how our life ends.What is important that we don't see those important people who helped us in the journey of our life but most importantly.....
We get entangled in this world and forget him who shouldn't be forgotten."Our creator". Allah Who created us. Yeah, we do remember that He is the one who created us but we don't thank him enough like how He should be thanked. We know that He is the one who is controlling everything but we don't ask him directly for anything and we rely on people, If we want something fro whom we expect, If we want good grades from whom we expect and If we want success from whom we expect even If we want life whom we seek? doctors,teachers,parents.See we don't ask Allah for Anything directly. We ask something when nobody can give but that's wrong. Expect from Allah, Rely on Allah alone, Ask for his help. He does listen.
When we expect from people we start believing in them and then put our faith into them but when we don't get the result we get upset, sad. And mostly disappointed. And when we rely on somebody for love or their trust and they don't respond , What happens? we get caught by depression and anxiety chases us. But I have seen people saying that we ask Allah for help, we make dua but he doesn't listen. How you can say that he doesn't listen. The One who created us doesn't,t listen to us?The one who created not just us but the whole world and everything inside it just for us, doesn't listen to us?
He listens and knows what is in our heart but wants to see how much we have faith in Him. He doesn't want us to shout, nor cry out loud because He listens to even the silent prayers of a sincere heart and no doubt He is the best Listener.
Sometimes things don't go as we plan and then we get frustrated and question Him for His judgment and this is an example of a broken faith. Why we question Him.Why we don't trust him with His judgment, His wisdom. Can anyone do better than in what He does?. Can anybody make better decisions than He makes? but we ignore this fact and look help around us. Its a fact that people believe and trust what they can see that's why people forget that who has the power. but we are human and we diverge from our path but Allah is always there to listen.No matter how many times we diverge from his path He will forgive us and He will listen because He loves His man. He just says "Remember me and I will remember you". And nothing in this world belongs to us even our body He is the one Who has given us this body and He will be one who takes it .then why we are so entangled in this world and why we rely on others for everything when He is the only controller.
Trust Him with whole your heart and whatever happens in your life have full faith that it was for the best because nothing happens without any reason.Sometimes to teach us something or sometimes it was not better for us. And when we will put our whole faith in Him we will see His signs in everything. We will know how amazing His decision was for us.He will always do better for us because He loves His man. This world is nothing than an examination hall where we are tested that Who will we rely on, from whom will we ask for help. We do fail sometimes but Allah reminds us again and again "Call me and I will reply". And Allah SWT never put a burden on a soul beyond that he can bear. Remember him and rely on him And pray only to him because He is the only one who has the power to change and make you stronger. Allah SWT says,
"Take one step towards me,
I will take ten steps towards you,
Walk towards me,
I will run towards you."
Love you guys. Be safe.
****bubyee***
Sunday, July 17, 2016
___ Blind Love ___
Love . There are lots of things in my life which I can't understand,like why I am studying stuff which doesn't make any sense or why I am in a box when I wanna fly,why I am writing when I have no idea what I wanna write about (seriously I don't know what I will write .. way to go noor!!) and the fact that I am so scared of thing called love.I know i am being so childish but love scares me and why is that?Same , there are lots of stuff confusing in my life but love is the thing which much more confusing for me than maths or may be chemistry ( I hate chemistry because I can never understand it).
I know love is something really beautiful that makes your whole world pretty or something but I never felt that .Does that means that I haven't found love yet or may be I don't know what love is .I don't know but I do wanna tell my meaning of love.Love for me is not a fairytale or disney movie or a bollywood movie for me love is different and how it is different??...............................................
I know love is something really beautiful that makes your whole world pretty or something but I never felt that .Does that means that I haven't found love yet or may be I don't know what love is .I don't know but I do wanna tell my meaning of love.Love for me is not a fairytale or disney movie or a bollywood movie for me love is different and how it is different??...............................................
Friday, June 17, 2016
Where do I belong?
In this world not everyone is same,everyone is different from each other somehow.Some people have clear views about their life what they wanna do or how they wanna live but some have no clue about life or even about their future.And I! well I am one of them.I don't have questions about life or existence of this life but I do have have questions that what I really wanna do in this life or what is my purpose.God has sent us in this world to praise him for every blessings but He also has given each individual some duties,some talents and I just wonder what is my duty or what is my talent.Till high school life goes straight but as high school ends, life starts and you start wondering that really! what we wanna do?mostly people have clear views but some don't.Till my high school I had a clear idea what I wanted to do but as my high school ended my views got distorted.(yeah i know a real pain huh).I always dreamed to be an amazing doctor.All I could think about was to be a doctor and I only prayed and wished to be doctor so worked so hard and never let anything come close to me which could destroy my dreams.
I really don't know what happened but in the last days of my high school I was not interested in becoming a doctor anymore .Hospitals were my favorite places to visit but now I didn't enjoyed going there but I did finished my high school with good result but whenever I think what I wanna do I can't put mind into it.Anyways I took a gap year to think what I really wanna do and started to see the world by popping my bubble and discovered that there was so many things that I really wanna do.One day I went to an arts college and I felt I belong there but I didn't knew anything about drawing because my base is science.But that was a whole new world for me which I discovered and I wanted to discover more of it and I wanted to be a part of it .I learned my passion for fashion design,painting.(I never learned anything yet I am really good at it).but everyone around me didn't thought the same.I knew what I wanted to do but still couldn't. I felt lost and confused and then again I was there thinking that what is really my duty<my talent.I know there are so many people who went on the path which they choose but I really don't know what I wanna choose.I don't have interest to be a doctor but science is also really special to me but I want to discover things,explore stuff.I don't want to be in a box or a bubble but I do wanna make my bubble colorful and big where I feel comfortable expressing myself.
Sometimes I do feel scared when I think about my future because I have no idea what it will be like or what I will be,And honestly I feel more scared when people come up to me and say that you should do this or that.Everyone has different opinions and ideas which make me feel more lost.But I am kindda happy too because I am discovering myself I don't know what I will choose in next few months or how my future will turn out to be but I want you guys and everyone to stand beside me and see what I will accomplish.I have feeling that I will be someone who will say that I did it.See! to be lost wasn't bad after all .The Creator knows what I am capable of and He will help me Insha Allah.So I know I am lost but still I feel secure because I believe that I will found myself and will do great in the end :) .
Thank you for listening and I hope you will stay with me till the end to see what I will become and honestly I would love that and also I am a kindda excited and curious that did you ever felt that?
"And whoever beleveth in God,He guideth his heart,
And God is knower of all things."
Love you guys.be safe.
***bubyee***
I really don't know what happened but in the last days of my high school I was not interested in becoming a doctor anymore .Hospitals were my favorite places to visit but now I didn't enjoyed going there but I did finished my high school with good result but whenever I think what I wanna do I can't put mind into it.Anyways I took a gap year to think what I really wanna do and started to see the world by popping my bubble and discovered that there was so many things that I really wanna do.One day I went to an arts college and I felt I belong there but I didn't knew anything about drawing because my base is science.But that was a whole new world for me which I discovered and I wanted to discover more of it and I wanted to be a part of it .I learned my passion for fashion design,painting.(I never learned anything yet I am really good at it).but everyone around me didn't thought the same.I knew what I wanted to do but still couldn't. I felt lost and confused and then again I was there thinking that what is really my duty<my talent.I know there are so many people who went on the path which they choose but I really don't know what I wanna choose.I don't have interest to be a doctor but science is also really special to me but I want to discover things,explore stuff.I don't want to be in a box or a bubble but I do wanna make my bubble colorful and big where I feel comfortable expressing myself.
Sometimes I do feel scared when I think about my future because I have no idea what it will be like or what I will be,And honestly I feel more scared when people come up to me and say that you should do this or that.Everyone has different opinions and ideas which make me feel more lost.But I am kindda happy too because I am discovering myself I don't know what I will choose in next few months or how my future will turn out to be but I want you guys and everyone to stand beside me and see what I will accomplish.I have feeling that I will be someone who will say that I did it.See! to be lost wasn't bad after all .The Creator knows what I am capable of and He will help me Insha Allah.So I know I am lost but still I feel secure because I believe that I will found myself and will do great in the end :) .
Thank you for listening and I hope you will stay with me till the end to see what I will become and honestly I would love that and also I am a kindda excited and curious that did you ever felt that?
"And whoever beleveth in God,He guideth his heart,
And God is knower of all things."
Love you guys.be safe.
***bubyee***
Tuesday, May 10, 2016
___ Ugly Smile ___
How many of us don't often smile just because they think that there smile is not pretty? If you are not one 'em well I will raise my hand because I used to think that. But I know its not just me, there many people who don't smile and reason could be anything like depression, anxiety, inferiority complex and other including ego. Why? Is your poker face gonna change stuff that you are going through? And the face which is always so serious come on, why you are scaring others?
When I was 13 or 14 years old I hated my smile (I know I was an idiot). I never used to smile or if I do, I would smile alone or I used to put my hand on my mouth so nobody could see it. I have this huge gap between my teeth which I hated. I used to feel inferior. Watching another smile so beautifully made me sad all the time. Then I started copying others smile hiding the gap between my teeth thinking that I can look beautiful like them but it was not my real smile. It was not something which made me forget everything. I was tensed and sometimes I wanted to remove that gap, then somebody told me that you know this gap is a sign of luck and you are the luckiest girl that you have it. It made me smile but a bit. Still, I was not satisfied but one day I was on the elevator and I saw this really beautiful girl and in my heart, I really wanted to tell her that she is beautiful and then for a minute I forgot everything, went to her and said YOU ARE REALLY BEAUTIFUL. (I was so nervous that I could almost hear my heartbeat). She smiled and then said wow you have a beautiful smile.,and that moment I didn't know what to do and came back I looked myself in the mirror over and over again and I could see it.'my beautiful smile'.You know what made it beautiful? It was real. It was not a fake smile. This smile made my heart smile.
And then it started smiling often in front of everyone and get this compliment that my smile is really beautiful. I was in this huge bubble of darkness which was full of so many stuff, overall my life was a mess but my smile took me out of it. Things didn't change but it made me happier, it made me a happier person on Earth. My smile made me more social and confident than ever. Now I am that person who finds it difficult to stop smiling. Whenever I go out I find somebody looking at me I pass a smile to them and then they smile back and you know it is the best feeling ever,but one day I did the same thing and a women got so confused and she looked away then she again looked at me and when I smiled again she smiled back. (see your smile can be a smile of so many people).You can make somebody smile just by passing them a smile and do you know that when somebody looks at you the first thing they notice is your smile then eyes and then smell.so smile more often.
Why should I smile? Well, I will say that its a disease good to have which releases endorphins, reduces your blood pressure, widen your brain, increases your lifespan, it makes you social. It is a special and amazing thing is that it is contagious. And How can you smile? watch funny video's, do what you love(it will give you satisfaction and healthy brain), do crazy stuff as I do ( I like to dance like zebra haha ).Dance.Sing, listen to the music and If you wanna see your real smile just compliment anyone that they have a beautiful smile and when they smile back, the smile on your face will be the real smile. Smile more often. Honestly, Nobody is judging you. Nobody has an ugly smile. To me, every smile is a precious smile. Your smile is precious to me so please smile because I love you when you smile :) (eeeeeeeee) :) a big smile :D
Use your smile to change the world,
But don't let the world change your smile.
love you guys.be safe.
***bubye***
Sunday, January 24, 2016
_____ The Darkest Side ______
You may be thinking right now that I might have a bitter life, Well I used to think that too but it was my way of seeing it. Let me tell you what I mean, I am a person who had an amazing childhood; nothing to worry about, nothing to complain about but childhood ends sometime and then everybody had to face the realities .... "realities of life" and I did too. How I met my realities? could be by failing or maybe by losing someone special or maybe by not achieving my lifetime aim. All of 'em sucks pretty bad. When I lost someone special, I can't think of anything and everything around me is so quiet and so unhappy that it starts killing me inside. And when all my life I made an aim 'a goal' which matters a lot and when the time comes I didn't achieve it even I have worked so hard for it may be more than anyone around me because maybe I wanted it the most but in the end I don't get it and it feels like my brain is just gonna blow up and my heart is gonna burst into millions of pieces and its not fair because I was working on this whole life, this was the only thing I could think of.
But know what should I do? What can I do? what I am capable of? I have no idea, no clue at all. I can't find myself anywhere because whenever I open my eyes I found myself in the middle of nowhere. All I can see is darkness, no lights and no one and when I try to hear something or someone there is absolutely nothing. I close my eyes and open them again that maybe now I can see something that can take me out of this darkness.and also like I can't breathe Sometimes I want to shout but I know no one can hear me. The pain becomes easy to endure when somebody is around you, it becomes easy to stand up and walk. But what if you don't have anyone. Yeah, I have thousands of people around me every day and have hundreds of friends but if no one can help me. I am a crying river of tears but no one is there to wipe them off. I share everything that what I am going through but its like no one is listening like they don't know from what I am going through because they don't understand.
So what should I do? I have responsibilities, I can't do them.so what should I do? yeah, I can turn this darkness into permanent darkness and this silence into permanent silence. Or maybe I can run away. I know we do get this kind of thoughts when we go through the toughest times of our life BUT this is the worse way to face any situation. I know I am not a good writer or a best motivational speaker but I can say this that whatever you are facing right now is not permanent. It is only temporary. We are human beings and emotions do get us but we are a human being that is why we can fight them too. I remember I read this sentence in the chapter of reproduction (I know it is way opposite of what I am talking about)but what I read can totally relate which was "only the competitive and healthiest person reach to this point"(biology book). Here competition doesn't mean to fight someone in the wrestling or something but the person who can overcome his fears and able to take control of his situation is the one able to reach this point. I have seen many people especially teenagers rather than taking control love to hug death and it is sad watching them wasting their precious life.
"To me, life is just like a candy, when you put in your mouth you will find that its a kind of bitter or sour ;) but it gets sweeter before you realize it "
God made us perfect and did send us with challenges but without those challenges, our lives will be dull. This is a temporary life and we will return to dust if not today maybe tomorrow and in the end, we will have plenty of time to see darkness. To get the sweet taste you have to go through the sour or bitter part. So will I welcome darkness in my life,,, I don't think so. This life is a stage, a stage to show how strong you are. If I will give up today I'll never know what I am capable of. And to break through this dark I have to create light in myself which I can create by having hope, by having believed in myself, and when I will have little hope I will see the light and I will take the hand of light and I'll try my hardest not let go. Because I am a warrior (a fighter ) and I'll not lose.What about you?
Whoever is going through this situation I'll pray that you become strong to face your situation and find what you are capable of.
Love you guys. Be safe.
***bubye***
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