In this world not everyone is same,everyone is different from each other somehow.Some people have clear views about their life what they wanna do or how they wanna live but some have no clue about life or even about their future.And I! well I am one of them.I don't have questions about life or existence of this life but I do have have questions that what I really wanna do in this life or what is my purpose.God has sent us in this world to praise him for every blessings but He also has given each individual some duties,some talents and I just wonder what is my duty or what is my talent.Till high school life goes straight but as high school ends, life starts and you start wondering that really! what we wanna do?mostly people have clear views but some don't.Till my high school I had a clear idea what I wanted to do but as my high school ended my views got distorted.(yeah i know a real pain huh).I always dreamed to be an amazing doctor.All I could think about was to be a doctor and I only prayed and wished to be doctor so worked so hard and never let anything come close to me which could destroy my dreams.
I really don't know what happened but in the last days of my high school I was not interested in becoming a doctor anymore .Hospitals were my favorite places to visit but now I didn't enjoyed going there but I did finished my high school with good result but whenever I think what I wanna do I can't put mind into it.Anyways I took a gap year to think what I really wanna do and started to see the world by popping my bubble and discovered that there was so many things that I really wanna do.One day I went to an arts college and I felt I belong there but I didn't knew anything about drawing because my base is science.But that was a whole new world for me which I discovered and I wanted to discover more of it and I wanted to be a part of it .I learned my passion for fashion design,painting.(I never learned anything yet I am really good at it).but everyone around me didn't thought the same.I knew what I wanted to do but still couldn't. I felt lost and confused and then again I was there thinking that what is really my duty<my talent.I know there are so many people who went on the path which they choose but I really don't know what I wanna choose.I don't have interest to be a doctor but science is also really special to me but I want to discover things,explore stuff.I don't want to be in a box or a bubble but I do wanna make my bubble colorful and big where I feel comfortable expressing myself.
Sometimes I do feel scared when I think about my future because I have no idea what it will be like or what I will be,And honestly I feel more scared when people come up to me and say that you should do this or that.Everyone has different opinions and ideas which make me feel more lost.But I am kindda happy too because I am discovering myself I don't know what I will choose in next few months or how my future will turn out to be but I want you guys and everyone to stand beside me and see what I will accomplish.I have feeling that I will be someone who will say that I did it.See! to be lost wasn't bad after all .The Creator knows what I am capable of and He will help me Insha Allah.So I know I am lost but still I feel secure because I believe that I will found myself and will do great in the end :) .
Thank you for listening and I hope you will stay with me till the end to see what I will become and honestly I would love that and also I am a kindda excited and curious that did you ever felt that?
"And whoever beleveth in God,He guideth his heart,
And God is knower of all things."
Love you guys.be safe.
***bubyee***
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