Okay, so my first day of school is very different from everybody out in the world.
My story is like a sad movie where everybody will watch and will enjoy and cry but then leave saying it was a flop movie. So yeah that kind of day I had.
First, let's keep in mind I moved from KSA to Lahore to pursue my medical dreams going into better college and my whole story kinda revolve around it. I love my college but it was a petite college. As I lived almost my entire life in a different country and had no idea that what I should be expecting so not to make a fool out of myself I asked my cousins for advice and honestly it was like they are preparing me to watch a ghost and what to expect from this horror movie. Ragging, pranks, canteen everything was like a script from a teenage horror movie.
But I was ready to be the person(that only Person who survives the horror movie) and conquer the day. I ironed my uniform and filled my mind with a fairy tale where my college will surround by a lake and after the main gate, there will be a huge welcome. Ooh and wait! everything will be true keep on reading.
I woke up and got ready for the college. I didn't want to be late, hoped on the bike and my uncle dropped me off and as I twirled my head to see the lake of my dreams I did saw the lake. The lake of drainage water. That crushing almost half of my fantasy I just started focusing on the college main gate. Keeping my self-positive and for the huge welcome thinking that after this gate there will be a new world. I entered and as I could see anything inside my eyes got locked on this huge watchman who was standing behind the gate. For a moment I felt, have the horror show started? This watchman was huge, who was the three of me and give me a huge welcome with his huge smile. I will clear out every smile is beautiful but that smile ..... just read. He gave me this non-stop smile where his end of the lips met his both ears. It was like I got welcomed by a joker from a batman and now only I can think is, Am I a batman now? Is this gonna be hate relationship or just the relationship where you just pass creepy smiles.
After that 10 min thought, I started focusing on college. I wanted to be the Haleema Aden of the college and enter the college like it is a runway. Expecting many girls I entered like a Gigi Hadid or Mahira Khan on runway show of shy, but my catwalk became man walk seeing only two girls and as I went further I figured out that I was the third girl entered in the entire college. Here everything changed because I know I was not that early and I was gonna avoid ragging but now I am like "where is my ragging girl!!". Still unsure about the situation I went to this girl considering her to be total evil (because she was senior so I did kinda expect her to play with me) I asked her where is my class giving her the look I give to my brother when I ask him where is my chocolate. The girl is super sweet guided to my class but me listening to the horror stories last night still doubting her innocence sat down on the ground like a puppy waiting for somebody to follow. And about 5 min later a girl came who was the first year. I followed her and found my class on the first floor.
My college was petite so getting lost was out of the question. I found my class.
It was just before her class. I entered in the class and it was empty like a crime scene which was closed down for long period for some investigation, too dusty and empty. I kept my bag on the chair and noticed two windows on the back of the class. To give myself a princess vibe I went back and opened the window like snow white would call all the animals and as I opened the window there was one animal. It was a squirrel standing and looking me like I broke her dishes or something. Or like in ICE AGE I took his nuts and hid it and now the whole world is in danger. Ignoring that squirrel thinking I became an adult not being stupid over the look of a squirrel I looked at the side to take in a deep breath of mesmerizing scenery but as my eye left the squirrel, my body exhaled every air is stored. There was a drainage water lake again. It rained a lot day before so that can explain the water everywhere but now I felt like a bad version of Rapunzel with her palace is surrounded with drainage water. I closed the window and came back in my seat and started waiting for everyone.
In just 15 in the whole class was filled and everybody was introducing each other and mostly knew one another and me pretending to shy avoiding everyone and then this girl approaches me for my introduction. And I felt like an angel with lights popping around her (as weird I am, I imagined those lights a disco lights.... well it is my imagination) she asked from which school I came from and I told her that I came from PISJeddah and she now giving me the look making me feel like I was not from Jeddah I was from Mars. She started asking me questions and said you know I feel very sorry for you? And me freaking out like why? Did she knew I did not have my breakfast and now she is feeling sorry for me... But it was just too early to think that. She started blabbering and saying oooooh in KSA you must have to do niqab and you must cover hands even .. you poor girl. And now I am like which era are you from girl!!. It is not compulsory or a law girl, what made you think that. And me trying to be a normal girl, another approaches me and said: "you know you are very made up". If I was not in shock already I went in ultra shock and said what do you mean? And she replied "your accent is very made up. I mean it is very fake". And now thinking to myself aren't I am speaking the same language as her and then getting in conservation with myself in my head "am I Donald Duck trying to talk to Minnie Mouse.but still Donald Duck is understandable, isn't he? am I not?. Am I really a
Donald Duck that everybody has a hard time understanding me". But now to myself, I feel so stupid that I am thinking about cartoons on the first day of my college which kinda made me realize I shouldn't be in college I should be in elementary school playing with Minnie Mouse.
After this 15 min argument in my head which Alhamdulillah nobody could hear I came in the real world and addressing that girl again "I don't think so I have a fake accent maybe I my Arabic and English trying to fit in with my Urdu". And she is like still I think you are not good at English either just trying to fit in. I just ignored her and sat back on my seat and what do you know, first class was English and my teacher told me to read a passage and I read it in a British accent I could and dab on the haters (just kidding.. now I am being carried away). After class, everyone acknowledged my very tried English but I was happy. Many teachers came and let me tell you my every teacher were amazing. But now it was a time for lunch break. I did not have my breakfast so I was starving and just wanted to get the first thing I could see but, of course, things have to be different because my day was a bad version of a Disney movie. I left my class and everyone was staring at me and having no clue why I walked by and one girl ran into me and said is it true you are from a?. Me feeling like a star said "yes but how do you know?". She replied, "are you kidding me everyone in the college knows that". And I felt each word from the mouth is like a fairy particle which came out and hit each and everyone in the college saying she is from Mars.
Ignoring that also hoping now I am a star people will treat me like one I went to the canteen and my canteen was a house of tin and there was a big crowd of girls. It was the scene of a rugby match where all these girls are in a rugby team fighting for the only pack of chips and juice left in this entire world. So obvi, I want that pack too and somehow managed to enter the crowd and now I am in the middle, watching each girl what they are doing. I closed my eye for a sec and I was way in the back of the line.
So now I knew for sure I am not a star here. Again pushing myself into the crowd believing that pack of chips is the only way to survive the world, acting all like warrior and marched in and marched out like a magic but getting nothing. My warrior strength was like a mouse trying to fight with a bear. It was like a magic and I was disappointed that things I wanted to be magical became phus magic but this magic was a was magic. Giving up on the pack of chips saying to myself it is okay it is not the end of the world came back to my class.
All the classes ended and now I am feeling good okay so let's go home, I will be fine and now started waiting for somebody to pick me up. All the girls passing me giving me smiles waving at me and I am like, this is my moment to shine and start ex-giving everyone a cinderella wave and prince charming smile(c'mon I mean, had to kill somebody with my smile) hoping I will leave soon but what do you know again it is me and two girls and the whole college is empty. But to myself no problem there are two girls so you will be fine but naah they left too and now I am again passing smile to that tall watchman and now to me he was not a joker from a batman he was the joker from IT(horror movie) and I felt like a child in a yellow coat. I went to staff hoping teachers will be there so I will feel little calm but woohooosh teachers were also gone. There was literally no one and 2-year-old whoever there was, all were different shapes of ghosts to me. I didn't know anyone, I don't the place or how to get to my house, I don't know. I was completely a lamb thinking that tomorrow I will be in the newspaper with headings "GIRL DISAPPEARED ON THE FIRST DAY OF HER COLLEGE".
I called home from the accountant office and came to the front gate. Now it was a smiling contest between a watchman and me but after 5 min watchman moved and he is coming closer to me. My head is screaming headline is true .. headline is true. He approached me and said beta call your home and I replied I did. He was so sweet and said they don't worry you are not alone they will come soon so relax. And after 30 min somebody finally came to pick me up. I wanted to scream but my crying face was not in the mood. I reached home and straight to my room. My mood is in agony whether to be angry or cry. But then the 2 years old and hugged my aunt because after the unusual day I wanted to be comforted like a 2-year-old.
It was an unusual day and makes me into tears every single time and I never wrote an essay on MY FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE in English tests. I mean what to write, if I will it will be full of misery and if the reader is full of imagination he can actually make a picture of the battleground in his head. My college was a rough start but with a beautiful ending...
Hope you guys loved it .. see you till next time
